Halloween Masquerade

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

This is it. This is it. I'm losing it. I'm completely, absolutely, irrevocably, undeniably, totally... LOSING IT!!! *grins madly*

I'M SO HAPPY!! I'm over the moon. I'm floating on Cloud 9. I can't stop grinning. Oh my poor cheeks. I can feel them cramping from the effort of grinning moronically without ceasing. Oh gosh, oh gosh, oh gosh!! And now I'm laughing madly! I just screamed twice into my pillow. This is a most severe case of emotions overload. *continues grinning in the same moronic manner*

Aren't you just absolutely bursting with curiousity to know what sparked my momentary insanity? Hmm...? Oh you just are, aren't you? *prods*

Gee, you must certainly think me mad now. But I just can't help myself. (Those who are well acquainted with me ought to know what has happened... Or at least have a good hunch...)

Because...





I JUST READ A FRICKIN' FANTASTICALLY GREAT NOVEL!!!!!!! ^_^

Uh uh, don't hit me now XD What were you thinking?

Ah, Julie Garwood, your novels might very well be the death of me some day.
I was absolutely blown-away and the ending made me teary. *sniffs*

I am pooped!! (Not literally poop though. Figuratively.)

I just got back home after shopping around Concourse and Bugis with Doris, Danson and Chris. We were supposed to look for masks, fake vampire fangs and black cloaks for our end-of-year J1 Bash, the Halloween Masquerade!!

Gosh, I'm so excited about it. ^^



And I realise, I'm happy again. I haven't been happy for a very long time. But now, I'm happy again (: I'm convalescing. At last.

Gee, my muscles certainly are screaming their protests.

After months of studying and not exercising, I finally went cycling today at East Coast Park with Chamberesque and Talz's brother, Anton. But only Talz, Anton and I cycled though. Marcus roller bladed, Em and Flo went to McCafe cos they didn't want to cycle and Kenneth joined us later. Gosh, it felt great to cycle again. Haven't cycled in like... eons!

After cycling, some of us bought some food from McDonalds and went to the breakwater to eat, and to talk and blah. I didn't buy food cos the queues were as long as the Great Wall of China. Yeah, I'm a lazy and impatient person. Haha. So after staring at the clear blue sky and the waves crashing onto the breakwater for some time, I got bored and dug out my novel from my bag to read.

Then after they finished their food, everyone started going down into the sea, with their pants rolled up and all, with the exception of Marcus and I (we were both wearing shoes instead of slippers or sandals). So we stood on the breakwater and watched them kick and splash around in the water, before my novel beckoned me once more.

So I was happily immersed in those yellowed pages of my novel until suddenly, a shadow loomed above me. Then I heard Kenneth's voice. "Val, put that book away." Bewildered, I started to turn around and the next thing I knew, sea water was being poured down my back.

I screamed bloody murder.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! -.-

But it was quite a fun trip though, except that I got sun-burnt :( In just those few short hours, I got SUN-BURNT!! Awed. Am I that pale?

I guess life can be beautiful afterall :)

I have gotten back all my papers, some results were expected, some were not. I got U (Ungraded) for Math. Now that was kind of expected, but sometimes you just can't help feeling the slap of pain reality deals you as you stare at the red ink on your script.

Next was Chemistry. I got a S for that. Now that really wasn't just a slap in the face. I felt like I got ran over by a truck. After weeks of mugging, I can't believe that I got just a mere Sub-pass for Chemistry. Without warning, tears flooded my eyes and threatened to spill out. But I held it in by sheer will. I am so not gonna cry in the lecture theatre.

Chinese was a tiny pleasant surprise. I topped the class for Paper 1, and overall, I got B.

GP was a little disappointing. Paper 2 especially. But I got a C anyway.

Economics just about blasted me off my feet. For the mid-years, I had obtained a U grade. I was so afraid history was gonna repeat itself. When Mr Aaron Tan was distributing the papers, Sabby and I were gripping each others' hands so tightly. Mr Tan saw it and went like "My gosh, relax man!" Hahaha. Then he gave me my paper and I nearly fainted when I turned the page over.

I frickin' bloody topped the class!!

I couldn't get over my shock. My heart was pumping so fast and I was trembling and shaking as I stared at my grade. I wanted to cry. Then Sabby hugged me, yelling "Congrats!!" and I just felt like screaming.

And, I got a C for Biology.

For those feeling sad, cheer up guys! It's not the end! I'm sure we all gave it our best! Don't lose hope! :)

For the first time in my life, I watched 3 movies within a month: Little Miss Sunshine, Death Note and World Trade Centre.

I watched World Trade Centre (WTC) with Marcus yesterday. It was a good movie. Very touching, emotional and sad. I was surprised I didn't cry, but I did tear a bit though. I guess I was too happy to cry (I got back Econs yesterday afterall). Haha. Great movie, great soundtrack, great cast.

After the movie, Marc went home and I went to National Library to get some references for our Written Report. As I stepped through the glass doors of the library, the usual blast of icy cold air greeted me and my sneakers were making small noises on the polished marble floor (was it marble? I can't remember. Haha). I went up to the Reference levels and after battling with the lockers for some time, managed to get my bag safely locked up. With a piece of paper and a pen, I strode into the Reference area.

I don't know why, but seeing shelves and shelves, and volumes and volumes of books towering over me, surrounding me, just makes me feel so happy. They exude such a sense of comfort and I felt so soothed and gee... even hugged! Hugged by books. Okay, now you think I'm asinine. But yeah, it was great and I was happy to be surrounded by books. And now you think I'm just stark raving mad :)

To hell with it all!! Sometimes, life really sucks. Fullstop.





Muffin, thank you so much for the ticket to Death Note's preview. The movie was great and it took my mind off the harshness of reality for those few hours that we roamed around Vivo City and watching Death Note (:

The haze is killing me, my eyes, my head and my lungs.

And the Door Silently Shuts

Laid bare,
Emotions resurfaced.
Those painful memories,
playing once more.

Build up,
The wall be tall and strong.
Like a trusty old armour,
protecting you from harm.

Close up,
To keep it in safe grounds.
The time has finally come,
and the door silently shuts.

-LeVaire

I went to visit my da yi po yesterday with my cousin. She has still yet to awake since the onslaught of a stroke on wednesday. Her heart beats per minute is freakishly fast, ranging at around 106 - 117. Scary... And she broke out into a fever today :(

Today I went to Marcus's concert with Doris, her friend, Cindy, Kenneth Ang, Talz, Em, Kenneth Chong, Daniel, Song Wei, Danson and his friends. What a group! Haha. Anyway the repertoire for the concert was lovely, had a lot of my favourite songs :) I'm such a sucker for Disney songs. Hahaha. Marc, looking good on the timpani yeah?

After the concert, I went walking around Suntec City with Talz, Em, Kenneth (Chong), Daniel and Song Wei. My heels nearly killed my feet. Ouch. Oh yes, I actually RAN in my heels today. Twice. Without falling down. What a feat! ^^

And here I go naively thinking that I could get some rest and relaxation after the promos. But nooooo... My school just HAD to slot in some lectures you know. It certainly is most thoughtful of them. There wasn't supposed to be school tomorrow. Tomorrow was supposed to be KI paper and tuesday the GSC Paper, both of which I'm not taking (hence holidays for me). BUT, our lovely Chemistry and Economics department very thoughtfully slotted in TWO HOURS lectures on these two days, Chemistry and Economics on Monday and Tuesday respectively.

When I received news of this lecture yesterday, I was alone on the MRT, on my way home from City Hall. I got the relay from Pris, and after reading the message, my mouth fell open and I went "HUH?!" to my cellphone, looking completely like a total moron on the train. Sheesh.

I miss my piano :( I want my piano.

THE PROMOS ARE OVER!!

Oh thank goodness. But they just HAD to have a dramatic ending to this period of torture quaintly termed the "Promotional Exams". Yes, I'm referring to our lovely Math paper this morning. Ain't it just set to slaughter man? I think it would be a most miraculous occurence if I can even obtain a sub-pass for this paper. And enough about the promos.

Cos... it's celebration time!!

I went out to Plaza Singapura with Doris, Sab, Pris, Kia Ming, Danson, Chris and Galvyn today to catch a movie. We watched "Little Miss Sunshine". It's NC-16 for language and this is the first time I'm watching an NC-16 movie. LOL, and they actually checked our IC, one by one, all eight of us, even though we were wearing our JC uniform.

But HEY, the movie IS good. It's unlike the typical movie where there're good endings and happily-ever-afters, but this movie is very real. I think it has a very good ending, even though it wasn't a happy one. But it was unique, very unique. The movie was funny too and had us in constant laughter throughout the 2 hours. Next movie to watch would definitely be "World Trade Centre". Goodness, I am so splurging. Hah.

Right um, so I got tagged by Daren. Hahaha.

*tagged victims have to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. specify the gender of the target. tag four victims to join in this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. if tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

Tagger: Daren
next victims: Marcus (I don't care, you're doing this again. Hahaha.) & Chuan Li

Target Gender: Male

Points of a perfect lover:
1) One who is able to put up with the unpredictable everchanging Cancerian mood. (my mood swings are scary. trust me. :))
2) No smoking please.
3) Understanding
4) Kind and caring
5) One who respects me
6) One who likes me for who I am and what I am
7) Friendly
8) Most importantly, one who loves me :)

Today was a rather eventful day I must say. Met up with Marcus for lunch at KFC and I was, as usual, late. Hahaha. I was on the MRT when he called my cellphone to inform me that his students were in KFC as well. Haha, surprise surprise. Sorry your age got revealed Marc, but I was in my school uniform =P

Tomorrow is my last and final exam: the deadly, lethal and unfathomable Mathematics. I wanted so much to give up on Math cos I knew I won't be able to pass anyway. But still, I forced myself to study, to practice the revision papers, to read through my lecture notes and to memorise the formulas. Sigh. I do not feel prepared at all. I see a U grade coming my way. Literally see it. I don't like Math... :(

Last night, one of my aunts (da yi po) suffered a stroke.

And she never woke up since then.

She's in ICU now, breathing with the help of a life-support machine. But in the back of our minds, we knew. She probably wasn't going to wake up anymore. I don't know. But one can always hope, no? But the scary thing is that the doctor wanted to turn off the life-support machine this morning, cos he knew that she wasn't going to wake up anymore. But everyone rushed down to the hospital and prevented that from happening. We all needed a little bit more time... A little bit more hope...

I don't wish to attend a second funeral in such a short span of time from the previous funeral. In fact, I don't even wish to attend a funeral. Because it only means that someone has passed away. BUT, in a way, it's a good thing too. As they pass on, they enter a better world, where there would be no suffering and no pain.

I just talked to my cousin. Well, distant cousin by relation, but the cousin whom I'm closest to, cos he's the same age as me. Ahaha.. His grandma and my grandma are sisters, hence the distant cousin thing. Get the relation? Okay, yeah, his grandma is the one who's in hospital now, the one who got stroke. And he told me that the doctor said there's 0% AKA... no more hope. Sigh. Why why whyyyyyyyy...? -.-

[Abrupt change of subject...]
4 papers down, 2 more to go. 24 hours a day is not enough. I need more time. Sigh. Chemistry paper tomorrow and Math paper on friday. I can just see the U grade for my Math paper la... Gut feeling. Somehow, I don't feel like I'm gonna make it for Math... I never did anyway...

Oh gosh, I am SO pessimistic nowadays. Too many depressing things happening. =( I'm gonna go study now. Ciao.

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